Patience is a Virtue

As most people know, Whit is working and living up north during the week and comes home on the weekends... We've been living by this “schedule” since the end of May. In March, our world turned upside down when Whit was laid off. It was a very stressful time for us. We only had my part time income coming in from the high school and the little bit of money I made on nails. But somehow we managed to pull through it and our prayers were answered when Whit found a job in May. The only problem was... It was in Lindon. So this whole summer has been a new routine of life for us. Whit wakes up early Monday mornings and leaves me for the week while he goes north to work. He then returns home on either Thursday or Friday night depending on how much work he has to do that week. So we weekly go 4 or 5 days without being together.

We hate the fact we're away from each other and he hates the fact I'm down here alone. I miss him a lot during the week. I think the whole situation is harder on him to be honest. He's up there by himself... I at least have our families down here. He's been looking for a job closer to home this whole summer and we've had no luck. Rumor has it, the Coal Mine might be hiring at the end of the long wall move... I'm not so excited for him to work underground, but at least he'd be home. We have made a deal, if he doesn't get on at the mine or anywhere else down here by November, we are making other arrangements.

Moving is a hard decision for us to make. When we moved to Salina, we bought our home using the 1^st time home buyers incentive... If we are to move before we've been in the house for 3 years, we have to pay the money we got back... Needless to say, that is not something we want to do. But at the same time, we don't want to be paying a mortgage on a house we aren't living in. We love living down here. Moving isn't something we want to do. Our family and friends are down here. But is it worth staying in a place you like when you have to be apart? It's a question we've both been asking these last few months. So right now our prayer is for Whit to find a job here.

There's a few things this “situation” we're in has taught me... First of all, appreciation for a hard working husband. It's not that I didn't appreciate him before, but the whole word “appreciate” has taken on a new meaning for me. I love the fact that Whit is willing to be so selfless and put my needs above his own. Whit HATES the city. He always has. So the fact that he is up there 5 days of the week to make sure I'm taken care of says a lot about him. Whit has told me he's learned to appreciate me so much more as well. (I think he just misses my cooking and cleaning!haha) Another thing I've learned is... You guessed it. Patience. Its been hard putting myself in the Lord's hands these past few months. I'm a person that likes to be in control and the fact that I haven't been has been very humbling for me. The whole “Thy Will Be Done” is hard to accept when you so desperately want your own will to be done. It's been hard... But as I've been relying on the Lord... This situation has gotten a little easier. I think on both me and Whit. I guess I find comfort in knowing that my heavenly father knows me best and knows what's best for us.